Day 6 - I swear I didn't cause this weather... on purpose

 

Day 6 of the log.

Been a while since I last used my black book. Technically it's green but it doesn't matter. Do you remember the concept of taking your thoughts or memories out of mind and into bottles from Harry Potter? Black book is generally like that for negative emotions. I don't use it often, since overuse leads to robot-like emotionless state. I needed a bit more patience to deal with my kids today though. 

My wife was horsing around so I had to take care of the kids before party. That means making dinner, bathing kids, dish-washing, laundry, cleaning the bathroom after them etc. In addition her horse got a bit spooked by sudden storm, same as our kids. This adds a bit more time to being alone with youngsters. Younger one fell asleep mid-storm in my arms. Good, she will have more energy for party.

I also managed to bake CharMorph materials into textures for use in Godot and added ability to move in-game player character around. No animations yet, so it's just a naked woman T-Posing to assert dominance over the game area. I feel like she would make a good enemy for a horror level this way. Also it really makes the room I created feel small. There are some things I need to improve, I'm thinking about swapping from realistic to anime-style character before committing my time to animations.

It seems there was an extremely localised storm today. There was next to no clouds on radar and it covered a very unusual area for this region. Strange.

Party went fine, I guess. Good food, bad seating arrangement, terrible music, nice place. We were placed next to the people farthest away from us on family tree, they were practically strangers. It's sometimes nice to see again the world and family you worked your ass off to leave behind. 

Life is like a like.

Day 5 - I could sleep all day and I still would be tired

 

Day 5, I guess.

 

'Twas a tedious day full of cleaning, buying clothes for my daughters, writing stories in a smoky room and hating the weather. Gods, I wish for like ten less Celsius where I live.  I'm tired just thinking about what I did today, especially the cleaning part.

I wrote fantasy for most of my life, but I ended up publishing this science fiction book. I have a second book already prepared, continuation to the published one, but I'm not going forward with it yet. I like to run the book through my wife's opinion. If book is clear for someone with semi-ADHD, then it should be clear and easy to follow for anyone. My wife promised me she will read it about a month ago, and I sent it to her three times since. She's really forgetful though.

So now I'm writing a small fantasy story as a break from science fiction. A story of a mage sent to cursed forest by emperor, who got cursed by the spirit ruling those woodlands after failed expedition to pacify it.

My leave from work is ending today. Frankly I'm exhausted. Alongside being off work I took upon myself quite a lot of daily housework. In fact my wife gained some weight and I lost some during those two weeks. I return to my daily job relieved that it's time to rest. Perhaps I will move some of less useful meetings outside and conduct them while woodcarving.

No other progress made today. I kinda feel bad about it, but I literally had no time or strength to do anything My arms are literary in pain after fencing and woodcarving. And tomorrow is a party! For a family member I barely know. I'm not a big fan of parties, I'm a highly functioning introvert so it's easy to put on a mask, but it's tiring.

A cup of apple cider ant it's time to bed.

Day 4 - wood shavings everywhere, I guess this is my life now

 

Day 4 of NPC-like log.

 

Today I managed to add a standing character with rotating camera to my game. Nothing exceptional, but it made me realise several things. Like that I need a bigger fight arena or that torches are needlessly oversized. Next step - getting character to move.

Another thing I did today was start of my latest woodcarving project - a scabbard for my longsword. I generally pick up new skills very fast (say, if skill levels are from 1 to 10, I can pick up level 4 in anything I want in about an hour) so it wasn't difficult. My sword already fits neatly into carved-out part of a plank despite me using chisels for the first time in my life. Tomorrow some more carving, making it a bit deeper to not loose fit during sanding, and planning the next step. I need a tool I do not have yet, linseed oil, furniture-specialised screws and time. Also I need to decide what do I want to carve on decorative side. Perhaps a spell?

I have one spell on my wall right now. My wife wanted a spell to stop her overbearing family from badmouthing us. Can't really stop them from doing so, thus I placed a spell to protect us from any negative consequences of their behaviour. I used tree of life as a base, followed a "two worlds connected by one person" structure using Chinese symbols for family relations with clarification in Runes. Wheel of Fate as the engine of the spell with snake symbolising direction it turns. As an outcome I used Eye of Horus surrounded by dragon holding a sanctuary rune. For now it works well.

Weather and kids were killing me today, so I forego fencing lessons. I couldn't risk two hour-long trips in car without ability to concentrate. I feel quite sad about it.

Life is like woodcarving - only the latest strokes and cuts can be seen, but those are least important.

Day 3 -- Apple Cider with Honey is all I need in my life now

 

Day 3 of NPC-like log.

 

So today I had fencing lessons. To be precise - longsword. It's one of my hobbies and I feel so refreshed after each lesson. Those are group lessons, usually, but I had some days when I was the only student. Tomorrow another lesson, in rapier this time. I could join sabre lessons too, but A - my wife needs time for her horse riding too and B - I'm not sure my body would manage more than two lessons a week, for now.

Today we had dumplings with beet juice, or at least I hope this is how this should be described in english.

I figured how to use CharMorph with Rigify to get basic human models for animation in Blender. Will start with basics like running/walking/sprinting animations. Then the hard part - learning to import those o Godot. Should also help me with other animations in the future.

I cleaned my car today with help of my daughters. Felt good.

I'm a bit curious what happens at my workplace during my absence, guess I will know of monday. 

Life is good.

Day 2, Pineapple juice is the best, Orange is close second

 

Second day of NPC-like log. 

Today I went to my physiotherapist. I'm borked, as always, but at least I'm making a progress. My abdomen muscles are improving, which should take some of back pain off. I miss milk, but it's not good for me.

I have watched and read several guides on how to make a third person player character in Godot. Mostly read since I don't have patience for slow-talking YouTubers, at least when they make guides. Looks simple, hardest part is having a character model and animations in the first place. That's something I will most likely have to sit down with for a while. Blender is my friend, my abilities in 3D modelling are currently my enemy. Improvement comes with time.

I made pizza today, home-made with ingredient chosen by my eldest daughter. Salami, mozzarella, corn, pineapple.

Life is tough, but worth living.

Day 1 - Good day, tired, cravings for truffles and cider

 

My wife recently advised me to keep a daily log of how I feel and what I find important in my day. For mental health apparently, but I feel like NPC. After all isn't it strange that in so many RPG games you can find literally an uneducated peasant to keel a journal of everyday life? Is education in fantasy worlds crazy good, or are everyone in fantasy worlds so forgetful they need to keep a record of their thoughts and ideas?

Never mind, let's fucking go.

I decided to start making a game. An MMORPG because no existing one was ever able to keep me for long, in Godot engine with Blender graphics because I'm a junkie for free tools, and I plan to do a server side in Java because that's what I've been doing for the past ten years.

This is technically the second day of making a game. For now mostly finding out how to transfer stuff from Blender to Godot. On first day I managed to create a brick-walled room by baking Blender materials into simpler textured solutions. Today I made a very simple wall torch sconce and forced Godot to accept that fire should glow and illuminate the room. My next step will most likely be making a simple character to move around. No animations yet, but I will probably grab some free animesque models from the net.

I made steamed sweet potatoes with carrots and broccoli and boiled eggs as filling part. Went well, but I made too much for our family of four.

I also cut a piece of wood to make a mushroom out of. It's a good woodcarving practice and my wife wants some small shrooms to "plant" under decorative plants.

Life's good. Tiring, but good.