I'm alone. Girls are at their grandparents flat, wife on a live course for a horse jumping competition judge. It's calming and quiet in my home. What should I do?
I tidied up on the bookshelf, filled dishwasher and laundry machine. I ordered some food and after finishing this post I will most likely hang the laundry. After eating I guess I will take a nap and then clean up the floor. Dishwasher should be done by then for another fill-up.
I sometimes think about magic. Things I did back when I was in the middle school were pretty extreme, but I will never know if they happened because of me or were just a lot of bizarre coincidences. Same with my wife and spells we use nowadays. Do they really work? Or is it all just a mix of placebo and coincidence. If something changes because we will it, it's called magic... and psychology. Can I cause again things that happened back then? And even if, can I somehow benefit from them? Tarot cards often confuse me, and I only understand what they could mean in retrospective. I say "could" because finding meaning in retrospective is something humans are hard wired to do, we find patterns and common elements everywhere not because they are there, but because that's the main ability of our brains.
And with that onto the next card.
Nine of Swords
This continues on the themes of previous card. Just like Eight of Swords showed situation of person being trapped by their own beliefs, ideas and preconceptions; Nine of Swords explores idea of someone being haunted, tormented by their thoughts, memories, ideals. Anxiety, fear, guilt and regret. Again, card doesn't specify that you really have the reason to feel those feelings. Instead it's simply stated that they are, within you, like a cancer giving you pain from the inside.
Many young people nowadays love to self-torment themselves with anxiety over things that are way beyond their control and so far away they will never even feel them. I guess it's time to blame media, after all why would anyone show a boring news about boring and safe events in the region, when instead you can make your consumers anguish over misery and injustice half a globe away? They have nothing to fear, but they will feel fear. They have nothing to be ashamed about, but shame drives clicks and payments.
In reverse this card has many meanings. Just like you can exit a hole you dug yourself into in many ways and directions. Perhaps it's time to finally let go of paranoia, anxiety and baseless fear? Or perhaps you are avoiding and denying you ever felt those emotions, pushing them down into subconscious? Perhaps you are finally breaking from the cycle of self-torment or self-torment is slowly bubbling within you not yet visible from the outside?
Just like there are many ways to get into situation from this card, leaving this situation has many different options.
No comments:
Post a Comment